When you go on your tumblr for the first time in like a century.
Hiiii
I miss this but at the same time I don’t?
I think I just miss feeling like I could write what the fuck ever about my feelings on this website without ever having anyone judge me. Whether I was feeling fly as fuck like I ruled to world or literally just was a fucking mess that wanted to die and take everything down with me, I could write about it here and it wouldn’t matter. People wouldn’t freak out or judge me.
This site just let me vent and I’m kind of thankful to have my archive available to look back on thoughts I used to have and re-evaluate why I felt like that now that I feel sooooo fucking different than I did back then.
Maybe that’s why I feel like I don’t miss it anymore, it’s not that I don’t still have shitty dark thoughts, I definitely do. I just have different ways to deal with those now.
Anyways, it’s past midnight and I need to fucking sleep. Goodnight tumblr, good to see you.
Until the next time.
<3
